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Letting Go Of Control

Letting go of control and walking in faith with God. #faith #scripture #inspiration

Newsflash. I’m a “Type-A personality”. Surprising isn’t it?! (That was sarcasm, but I thought I would clarify since you’re reading this and can hear the intonation of my voice).

What’s a Type A Personality? I love Wikipedia’s definition because it’s TOTALLY me:

“Ambitious, rigidly organized, highly status conscious, sensitive, truthful, impatient, always try to help others, take on more than they can handle, want other people to get to the point, proactive, and obsessed with time management. People with Type A personalities are often high-achieving “workaholics” who multi-task, push themselves with deadlines, and hate both delays and ambivalence.”

Sounds kind of good, right? The problem is my need to control makes following God kind of challenging. Thankfully He knows my heart and knows my weaknesses as much as my strengths so He’s been giving me some REALLY loud messages lately. Here is one such example of Him speaking so clearly to me….

I went to the bookstore with a gift card. I was certain the amount on the gift card was somewhere around $17. I stood in the Christian section of the store. I’ve recently read Not a Fan by Kyle Idleman, I’m working on the Beth Moore prayer devotional, Whispers of Hope, but I wanted another book that would encourage growth in my Christian walk. I stood there with two books in my hands. I read both of the book jackets and felt torn as to which one to choose. I debated and deliberated. Then I felt a sudden strong urge to buy one.

I went to the till to purchase the book. The cashier rang it through… $17.31.

Then she scanned my gift card.

I literally saw her jaw drop.

The amount on the gift card was EXACTLY $17.31. She was floored and said she has never seen that happen before… EVER!

I knew in that moment I had selected the right book. I knew that God wanted me to read that book and He was making it clear to me that I made the right choice.

The book is entitled Let. It. Go. by Karen Ehman.

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It is about “how to stop running the show (letting go of control) and start walking in faith”. Remember how a couple months ago I declared that I’m All In with God? I’m still struggling with handing everything over to Him. There are still bits and pieces that I want to control. Thankfully, I’ve been on a journey of prayer so I have been asking for His guidance in this area of my Christian walk.

I am a few chapters into this book and it has already been life-altering. In the first chapter you are required to take a test about control. I was so unhappy with my results that I wanted to take the test again. That in itself tells me that I need to read this book!

God is good. He listens to our requests and He faithfully answers. For me, an answer to prayer came in the form of a book… with the price tag of $17.31.

I know that if I can let go of this urge to control he will do more wondrous things. I can’t wait to see what else He has in store for me!Jennifer-The-Deliberate-Mom-Signature

Jennifer Bly
Jennifer Bly
Author of My Kitchen, My Classroom: An Introduction to Homeschool, creator of The Deliberate Mom, Deliberate Homeschooling and regular contributor to The Huffington Post. Jennifer writes about parenting, her faith, and life with her husband and two girls. Jennifer has a Bachelor of Applied Human Service Administration Degree with a specialization in Early Learning in Child Care.

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25 thoughts on “Letting Go Of Control

  • familyfaithfoodfabric

    What a wonderful post! We are Tao cultivators in our family and letting go is definitely at the center of our practice. Often times, trying to control things is holding on to things that we “believe” we can control when in fact, they could slip from our fingers at any moment. I had to learn that very quickly when I became a mother. I had So MANY plans… things we would do, things we would say, feel… and so full-of-myself, thinking that my child would turn out a certain way! Yeah… I quickly learned that being a parent meant letting go! yesterday is gone, tomorrow hasn’t happened, only today exists. :-) Thank you for that inspirational post…

    On a querky note : I saw GST on your receipt! Which part of Canada are you in? I’m in Quebec City. :-)

    • Jennifer - The Deliberate Mom

      Thank you for your thoughtful comment Yanic. I find I tend to try to control that what I’m afraid most of losing. Fortunately the Lord is showing me ways to learn how to trust more.

      I’m in Alberta! Always nice to connect with a fellow Canadian!

      Wishing you a lovely day.

  • R.F. Dietz

    What a cool story! These types of things are always happening to you- I love that you’re getting the messages..though they aren’t so subtle! Dang. How incredible is it that you’re exactly where you need to be right now? That’s some awesome affirmation right there.

  • Tiffany {A Touch of Grace}

    Wow, that’s amazing! It was meant to be Jennifer. I love the Wiki definition; it fits me pretty well also, eek!
    I like that the book starts with a test. I may have to look into this one. Although my daily Bible reading isn’t going so well so I’m not sure I’ll be able to fit another book into my life right now. :(

    Have a lovely Wednesday!

  • Ceil

    Hi Jennifer! Well, if that isn’t a ‘God thing’ then I don’t know what is! Love the photo of the receipt too, priceless :)
    It’s such a gift to find a book ( or person or prayer) that meets you right where you are at that moment. You feel so specially blessed to have found it, and you know you are not alone. Such blessings.
    You have a new blog look? Well, if I finally noticed, I’m sorry to mention it now! I’m a little slow.

    Hope your walk is going well my friend,

    • Jennifer - The Deliberate Mom

      Yes it is definitely a ‘God-thing’ isn’t it! He is so good with the confirmations He gives me and the way He touches my life. I feel blessed.

      New blog look? Are you referring to the snippets of posts on the Home page rather than full posts on the home page. That’s pretty new. Otherwise I’ve been sporting this ‘look’ since the new year ;)

      Wishing you a blessed day Ceil!

  • Pamela Donnis Designs

    Made me laugh when you said you took the test in the first chapter and were unhappy with the results and wanted to re-take it. Sounds like something I would have done! Hope the book is everything you want it to be. xoxo

  • Organized Chaos

    I also battle with control! It runs me ragged!! I absolutely fall apart. I am working on this and praying constantly. I know God is using this time in our lives to work in that area too! It is a difficult journey but one worth taking!

  • Kelli @ A Deeper Joy

    Oh Jennifer….you just described ME! I needed to read this post. I love your insight and wisdom! Thank for being honest and for sharing what the Lord has been telling you. I am definitely going to look into reading this book! Have a wonderful evening!

  • Robin Kramer

    As a fellow Type-A individual, I hear you loud and clear! I have “Let. It. Go” on my bookshelf, too, so maybe I can read along. (Confession, I cannot look this title without singing the soundtrack from Frozen. My children have ruined me.)

    Loved the receipt! To the Canadian penny, nonetheless!

  • Z @ Kicking Kilos

    Wow Jen u are such a perfectionist.
    i am inclined to help others, but i am never perfect in what i do.
    I am trying to get there.

  • Horace Williams Jr

    Yikes Jennifer! What a great story but that definition scares me.. hits too close to home. I was reading it and said to myself…Hmm sounds a little like myself. I am striving every day to relinquish total control to God and trust Him in everything not just some things. Thank you for sharing such an insightful post! I really enjoyed and was blessed by it:)

    • Jennifer

      I’m so glad this post blessed you and spoke to you Horace. It’s hard to hand everything over to God, but that’s what He asks us to do. So we do and practice it as much as possible.

      Thanks for sharing your thoughts on letting go of control.