Newsflash. I’m a “Type-A personality”. Surprising isn’t it?! (That was sarcasm, but I thought I would clarify since you’re reading this and can hear the intonation of my voice).
What’s a Type A Personality? I love Wikipedia’s definition because it’s TOTALLY me:
“Ambitious, rigidly organized, highly status conscious, sensitive, truthful, impatient, always try to help others, take on more than they can handle, want other people to get to the point, proactive, and obsessed with time management. People with Type A personalities are often high-achieving “workaholics” who multi-task, push themselves with deadlines, and hate both delays and ambivalence.”
Sounds kind of good, right? The problem is my need to control makes following God kind of challenging. Thankfully He knows my heart and knows my weaknesses as much as my strengths so He’s been giving me some REALLY loud messages lately. Here is one such example of Him speaking so clearly to me….
I went to the bookstore with a gift card. I was certain the amount on the gift card was somewhere around $17. I stood in the Christian section of the store. I’ve recently read Not a Fan by Kyle Idleman, I’m working on the Beth Moore prayer devotional, Whispers of Hope, but I wanted another book that would encourage growth in my Christian walk. I stood there with two books in my hands. I read both of the book jackets and felt torn as to which one to choose. I debated and deliberated. Then I felt a sudden strong urge to buy one.
I went to the till to purchase the book. The cashier rang it through… $17.31.
Then she scanned my gift card.
I literally saw her jaw drop.
The amount on the gift card was EXACTLY $17.31. She was floored and said she has never seen that happen before… EVER!
I knew in that moment I had selected the right book. I knew that God wanted me to read that book and He was making it clear to me that I made the right choice.
The book is entitled Let. It. Go. by Karen Ehman.
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It is about “how to stop running the show (letting go of control) and start walking in faith”. Remember how a couple months ago I declared that I’m All In with God? I’m still struggling with handing everything over to Him. There are still bits and pieces that I want to control. Thankfully, I’ve been on a journey of prayer so I have been asking for His guidance in this area of my Christian walk.
I am a few chapters into this book and it has already been life-altering. In the first chapter you are required to take a test about control. I was so unhappy with my results that I wanted to take the test again. That in itself tells me that I need to read this book!
God is good. He listens to our requests and He faithfully answers. For me, an answer to prayer came in the form of a book… with the price tag of $17.31.