The trauma that I encountered last October has been a huge nemesis, a dark force, and an overpowering presence in my life. I have tried so hard to overcome this obstacle… to press forward and return to my place of employment, the place where all this pain started.
I can be certain that in the midst of this challenge, God has heard my cries of frustration. I’ve been praying for deliverance, healing, and the strength to overcome.
God has answered those prayers in the most magnificent of ways!
My husband was recently given a wonderful job offer. Since he was previously staying home with our girls, this means a role reversal, where I would be staying home with the children while he works. In an instant I felt like chains were released from my neck and a burden was lifted from my shoulders. I can overcome this obstacle, but our livelihood doesn’t depend on it! We will have another financial means and I can continue my exposure therapy on (and in) my own time.
I am leaving a twenty-year career as an early childhood educator to embark on a new journey with my own children. This truly is a life changing moment. As quickly as my world was shattered, it has been restored beyond what I could have ever wished for or comprehended.
I recently stumbled upon this quote and it captured my feelings beautifully:
“No, this is not the beginning of a new chapter in my life; this is the beginning of a new book! That first book is already closed, ended, and tossed into the seas; this new book is newly opened, has just begun! Look, it is the first page! And it is a beautiful one!” ~ C. JoyBell C.
I feel free. I feel renewed. I feel I have a second chance to live the life I know I’m meant to live. Today I have no other words to describe how I feel, other than thankful… thankful to have this new and beautiful beginning.