I’m All In

I love God. He has taken my life and has blessed it. He has healed me. He has lifted me up. He has helped me overcome. I love Him for this. He is amazing.

However, I recently realized that I don’t want Him to ask me for too much. I realized that I have several limits and boundaries… that I can only give Him so much. Moreover, it’s embarrassing to admit but there are certain parts of my life that I have pretty much said are off-limits to Him.

Wow. What a harsh realization that I want God for MY needs. To help MY life. To make things better for me.

I realized that my relationship with God is not going to grow or flourish if I don’t hand everything over to Him. I need to relinquish control of the areas of my life that I’ve been holding onto so tightly. My marriage, my children, the comfort of my home… I have to hand everything over to Him.

I have been operating in fear that if I hand everything over to Him, that He will ask me to do something I can’t do or request me to let go of something that I can’t let go of. I have been trying to control our relationship.

In order for my relationship with God to grow, I have to go “all in”. I have to hand absolutely EVERY part of my life over to God and trust that He will take care of everything. I have to trust that if He asks me to do something challenging or difficult, that He will provide the strength and grace for me to carry out His will.

So here, today, I am declaring (with an earnest heart and tears of joy in my eyes)… that I’m all in. Fully and completely. I’m all in.


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  1. says

    I understand what you mean. Sometimes I find myself praying and adding a “but please dont….”. I often feel guilty for it, though I realize he understands what I truly mean and where i come from. It’s not easy to let go and let God and I think it’s brave of you to lay it out there like this. Thanks for sharing Jennifer

    • says

      Oh yes… the prayer of “please don’t”. I’m familiar with that. It’s so important to remember that Christ gave us a “sample” prayer that included “your will be done”. He knew we would struggle with our will vs. His. Thanks for sharing Becky.

  2. says

    I struggle with this ALL the time. There have been some devestating and trying times in my life, especially recently, and I always question why God would do things. What am I doing wrong? Am I not a good enough person? Maybe I need to follow suite and go all in.

    Thanks for the message friend!

  3. says

    Hi Jennifer! I am just in awe and so proud of you all at the same time! I say that I’m going to surrender to the Lord, and then often just snatch it back because I get nervous. Nervous of what? I don’t know…maybe he will forget me? But he will never do that.

    I want 2014 to be my year of ‘surrender’ and you have confirmed it. Thank you! Let’s have a real new year, and a year of favor from the Lord! Yay!
    Blessings to my friend,

  4. says

    We all have periods where we doubt God’s real love and total protection. He knows that, and forgives us all the same; because He made us and knows our human nature. God will not test us beyond our capabilities to endure. He is not, after all, in the business of losing souls. And when He asks of us He will make sure that we are capable to respond.

    May He bless you always.

  5. says

    I hear you, my friend. The reality is that we once were slaves to sin, but now we’re slaves to righteousness. The beautiful thing to remember is that our Master is loving and kind, with good plans for our lives. Even if those plans require sacrifice or involve pain and loss, He walks with us to make his purposes come to pass.

    “All in.” I love it, and I want that, too.

  6. Z @ Kicking Kilos says

    I have immense faith in him and try my best at all things. BUT first remember him and ask him to bless me. With God everything is better. Right?

  7. says

    I encourage you in your resolve to be all in!! I’m in the middle of a trial at the moment and keep trying to give it to God, but when things aren’t happening fast enough, I begin to worry again :-( He is faithful and I am trying to trust Him COMPLETELY … because we all know He knows better than us! LoL Wishing you the peace that only He can give <3

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